is it bad that i have 2 full brothers, 1 half brother, 4 step sister, and 1 step brother, and not a close relationship with any of them?
the only person i’m close with in my family is my mother. i promise one day that when i have kids, they will have a close relationship with all their siblings, and cousins, and parents. i don’t want any of them to have all these siblings, but sit at home and feel like the lonely only child.
everytime i look at you, or your pictures i just get this feeling in my stomach. some say it’s butterflies, but i’m pretty sure people only get butterflies when they’re in love, and i’m not in love, bc being in love, you need two people. i love texting you, i love your smile, i love the way you live your life. you’re probably my favorite person right now, besides my mom bc i love her. and just typing this out and expressing it, makes me feel so much better.
is it weird that everytime i finish with something, i think of it as an end to a phase in my life? i’ve been getting very close to the end of my deodorant, and i can’t help but thinking of it as an end to a phase in my life, and i just don’t know why? i think about little things like that, little things such as when i finish the bottle of shampoo, or maybe when i get a new toothbrush, it can symbolize a new beginning to a stage in my life… am i the only one?